So so

Good news are here and I feel excited.

1. I got the job I was looking for, indeed is a job with a tiny bit more hours than my job now, BUT HA! that means I'll get more money and I'll be speaking Spanish all day which makes it easier. I'm excited and I cannot wait to meet the kids and their parents.

2. I weigh in this morning!!! 82,5 STRIKEEEEEE!!! it's on 7,5 kg in a week and a half are allot but this is probably the gazillion liters of water I was holding in. In fact my feet are still swollen after work so I have to keep on doing what I'm doing drink water and water and pee like there's no tomorrow. Is helping and I feel better.

3. Tonight's ZUMBA!!!

4. Just a month and Harry potter premiers and the night after that we are flying!!!! Yay I'm so so excited!

That's all for now people. I don't think anybody reada this but hey I like to write al this down!

Friday cry day

Today... Was a weird day actually a weird afternoon. I had a gym date with my mom after work, we met there. I was happy that's my 3rd day at the gym this week. I did my hour of cardio and was pretty proud of me because I made 8km in an hour.

After my sunbath session (lol) I went to take a shower. My mom came around and she saw me naked for the first time in a long time. The look on her face said it all and then she said it "what happened to you? Omg u really have to lose weight"

Yes it broke my heart, especially cuz I was already feeling a tiny better, but that all of sudden killed me. I told her I know I'm looking horrible and I'm very fat. She already knew my mood had changed in a second. Anyways we started an argument about it how I've changed the last few months. She told me I'm letting myself go and I should get my shit together and do something. I started to cry and cry and cry and all I was avoiding this time all this sadness, frustration, bitterness came out.

I told her how I'm feeling and that I'm away or M.I.A because all of the dea in my head.

I'm very very sad because of my work place. I would accept that they told me they don't want me because I don't fit in the team or something. Instead they told me I'm unable to build relationships with the kids. Is like telling me I suck at my work. And it is not absolutely not true, it hurt me more than I admitted. I also told her how I think of myself and she told me the same Vero ( my bestow) told me. I'm self destructive... To be continued

New attempt

Ok, so I am writing again, actually I wanted to write here when I lost so much weight, well guess what? I gained aprox. 14 kgs AGAIN! :( Booh me. Ok I was talking with my best friend today, (she almost reached her goal by losing like 10 kg) She is looking amazing and I think it is time for me to get my ass up there and get my nice body back...even if I have some other issues to solve, like my view on myself... I am writing here to keep track on my weight and my "I love myself" progress...

Day one:

Weigh Check : 87,5 Kg
Goal : 69 Kg

So are u in?

Today's gym activity : 60 min Zumba